In less than two weeks my family will be crammed into my apartment, air mattress taking up my entire living room. Saturday afternoon I’ll dress in cap and gown and go through a commencement ceremony. Pizza will follow, but it will be fancy pizza for a fancy occasion.
At the end of September I will start my final term of school. The last three classes I need to officially graduate, Criminology and Delinquency, Psychopathology, and Psychology of Men and Masculinity. Then I will be done.
I have mixed emotions about the end of this year. The end of the year marks the end of school, for a while at least. It’s a bittersweet feeling. I’ve been in school nearly my whole life and I’ll miss the learning. But there’s also the start of a new chapter in my life. A hunt for a full time job and a reason to leave my old one.
I’ve been in a reflective mood recently. Thinking over mistakes I’ve made, wondering what if I had done things differently. Would any other path lead me to where I am right now? Maybe, maybe not. I’m not a regretful person, there is no reason to wish for other outcomes when you can’t change anything. But still, now that such a big part of my life is almost over I can’t help but wonder what if. But I like where I am now, in life and school.
I’ve been looking at Graduate programs. A Forensic Psychology one caught my eye, but it’s a fantasy. But still, I look and I stick my toe in the water. I have prepped for grad school, not really. But I have a little less than a year to decide and apply if I’m serious. I want to be serious but I don’t love any of the programs enough to be. Not yet anyway. That could change when I don’t have current classes to finish.
This all a bunch of nonsense really. Just thoughts and feelings floating around. Growing up is so convoluted.
Sometimes words can say so much, but mostly they just say nothing at all. Words are alluringly malleable and can be shaped into wondrously beautiful beings.
Psychology of Men and Masculinity? I say you seal Vahid in a big box with a bag of Doritos for 48 hours and observe what happens. Everything you need to know about male psychology would be on full display, and I’m sure you could get course credit for your troubles. There! Now you only need two classes. You’re welcome!
Dave2´s last [type] ..Diary
Ha! That is brilliant. I might just do that for the fun of it.
Once you start thinking and talking about grad schools in earnest, someone, somewhere, is going to try and convince you that law school is a good idea. (It’s such a versatile degree! You can do anything with a law degree! Etc.!) I cannot emphasize this enough: IGNORE THEM. Law school is a terrible idea. A law degree is only good for one thing, and that thing is unemployment. Oh, and also student loan debt. So I guess that makes it good for two things. But if you ever, EVER, start entertaining the notion, call me immediately so I can talk some sense into you! You’re welcome in advance
kat´s last [type] ..A long time ago tomorrow morning.
I actually thought about law school a few years ago. But I have no desire to go, when it comes right down to it.
Yesterday my friend told me I should go to law school, I thought of your comment and started laughing.
I remember feeling these feelings. I still haven’t gotten my masters yet. If you can find passion for one program, do it now. Otherwise, wait for the passion.
Passion is my number one problem. I like a lot of programs, I don’t love them. So I will wait and see what happens, life has a way working itself out in the end anyhow.