The girl sitting next to me is practicing speaking Chinese with a tutor. The lecture I am watching is interrupted by loud repetition of words I don’t understand. The sun is shining through the windows, making the place absurdly bright. It’s interesting the places we end up. The things we seek after taking them for granted for so long.
This term was hard. My classes weren’t hard, the hardest was Philosophy, but that was expected. No it was hard because it was filled with conflict and there was no resolution. It’s almost over, just one more meeting and then we can go our separate ways. It’s left me drained. Everyday I would wake up to an inbox full of nasty emails about the project. The last week it’s escalated to threats, while the threats weren’t outright ones of physical harm, it was implied.
We were supposed to see a mediator to see how we can work through this conflict, as I don’t want to go to class if this person wants to hurt me. But that is not going to happen. Due to this person’s manipulative behavior she has charmed everyone (despite the physical proof of the emails) into thinking that we (another girl and I) were overreacting. She said she was just “venting” and that she will be fine for the presentation/last meeting. I’m irritated that everyone is so afraid of getting some kind of backlash that no action is being taken. It’s almost over so my irritation is mild. It’s just the principle of the thing, threats are now not an automatic failing of the class, it’s an excuse to “work things out.”
My apartment is dirty. I was hoping to do a big spring cleaning but it was currently snowing this morning and since we don’t use heaters in our place I haven’t been leaving the piles of blankets on the couch for much when I’m home. Maybe later this week the weather will warm up and I can get something done. Even if it’s just more laundry because I’m pretty sure I’m out of clean socks.
Did I mention that in two weeks Vahid is taking me on vacation? We are spending the weekend in Seattle. There are so many things planned and I’m so excited to get away for more than a day trip. Seriously, finals week cannot be over soon enough so we can go.
I have more to say but I don’t have enough answers to write about them. Maybe soon though. I have a lot of catching up to do.