Always playing catch up but never getting caught up.

The girl sitting next to me is practicing speaking Chinese with a tutor. The lecture I am watching is interrupted by loud repetition of words I don’t understand. The sun is shining through the windows, making the place absurdly bright. It’s interesting the places we end up. The things we seek after taking them for granted for so long.

This term was hard. My classes weren’t hard, the hardest was Philosophy, but that was expected. No it was hard because it was filled with conflict and there was no resolution. It’s almost over, just one more meeting and then we can go our separate ways. It’s left me drained. Everyday I would wake up to an inbox full of nasty emails about the project. The last week it’s escalated to threats, while the threats weren’t outright ones of physical harm, it was implied.

We were supposed to see a mediator to see how we can work through this conflict, as I don’t want to go to class if this person wants to hurt me. But that is not going to happen. Due to this person’s manipulative behavior she has charmed everyone (despite the physical proof of the emails) into thinking that we (another girl and I) were overreacting. She said she was just “venting” and that she will be fine for the presentation/last meeting. I’m irritated that everyone is so afraid of getting some kind of backlash that no action is being taken. It’s almost over so my irritation is mild. It’s just the principle of the thing, threats are now not an automatic failing of the class, it’s an excuse to “work things out.”

My apartment is dirty. I was hoping to do a big spring cleaning but it was currently snowing this morning and since we don’t use heaters in our place I haven’t been leaving the piles of blankets on the couch for much when I’m home. Maybe later this week the weather will warm up and I can get something done. Even if it’s just more laundry because I’m pretty sure I’m out of clean socks.

Did I mention that in two weeks Vahid is taking me on vacation? We are spending the weekend in Seattle. There are so many things planned and I’m so excited to get away for more than a day trip. Seriously, finals week cannot be over soon enough so we can go.

I have more to say but I don’t have enough answers to write about them. Maybe soon though. I have a lot of catching up to do.

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10 Responses to Always playing catch up but never getting caught up.

  1. Sybil Law says:

    Whatever you do, do NOT let the psycho chick know she got to you at all. Damn that makes me angry. I’d kick her ass up and down the joint. GAH.
    Hang in there – almost over!!

    • Sarah says:

      She never did. She tried to confront me after the term was over and I was like it’s over. I don’t care about you any more.

  2. vahid says:

    Oh, you have plenty of clean socks. Trust me. :)
    vahid´s last blog post’s the story of my goddamned life

  3. Stacey says:

    Your title is like every day of my life . . .

    Reading about psycho girl pissed me off. You shouldn’t have to deal with crap like that.

    Enjoy your vacation. It sounds like you deserve it!
    Stacey´s last blog post ..Just a Dog

  4. Liz says:

    Yikes. Crazy people are a pain in the ass. Hope everything gets resolved soon and toucan finish the semester in peace!
    Liz´s last blog post ..Life Stuff: Overloaded and Loving It

  5. martymankins says:

    This level of threats over a college class seems a bit much. Hard to wrap my mind around something like that. Hope things calm down for you here soon.
    martymankins´s last blog post ..Comfortably Unhappy

    • Sarah says:

      Thanks Marty! They calmed down, but a new group project with a new bitch has started up. Doesn’t seem as intense and it’s over in two weeks so that’s good!

      It’s like I get all the winners all the time.

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